have been back on audition for quite some time. addicted again.. cant seem to ask myself to stop playing it.and it eventually led to my breakup with dear. i know many will think that i'm dumb. but for now.. i wanna be selfish. i wanna have fun... silly ehs. but i cant help it...

La da da da

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself in center
Clarity, peace, serenity

[chorus:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

The path that I'm walking, I must go alone
I must take the baby steps till I'm full grown, full grown.
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I forseek the darker half if I stay

[chorus:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds

But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself in center
Clarity, peace, serenity
Ahha

[chorus:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

La da da da da da

its over. i will try my best not to dwell on it. for now its only studies work and audition. nothing else. all the crying has to end. Big girls dont cry.. ^^

haven been blogging regularly.. met up with ting yesterday night to collect my foundation.. we haven a very good talk. it felt good. its always nice to meet up with old friends and chill..just called ze wei's home. haha.. i'm a troublesome kid.. cause iw anna  get my jeans altered. but she's nice enough to help me. i like her. she rocks. hahas. i think  ze wei will be shocked. i didnt even tell him.. i feel lame. i'm simply blogging about nothing. haha. as usual. ai lun woke me up. they're really gonna go bangkok. i really wanna go..but baby dont. argh..

between last month till now. i've been to plenty of interviews. yes i am FUSSY. and i have one later. i wish i can split myself. i've still gotta go kaki bukit to collect my pay. and stupid ken still haven send me the add. argh. he's an idiot.!!! from feb till now, i haven even collect a single cent from him..SHAME on that company. kns kns kns!! make me so broke.

bye bye to my extensions. welcome my hair. i spent the entire evening rebonding my hair. results - not bad. i dont know how baby will react if he sees my hair. haha. woman are - fickle minded. haha. if i have rebonded hair i'll want my hair to be permed. vice versa. haha. how ironic..

played mahjong with joey and gang recently. it was fun. (although i lost) but its the process thats important not the results. whats the point of sulking after u lost ,no point! poor joey surrendered his cigs to me. hahah. yay!!

ailun gave me a treat too. THANKS GIRL. you're like me elder sister. and i love talking to you, hui fen and xin yi so much. you guys make time pass faster!

(if u find that my entry is messy , it means i have so much to say but dont know where to start from)

ah mei u will find ur happiness de! dont give up..

[Haley Bennett]
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

[Hugh Grant]
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

[Haley Bennett & Hugh Grant]
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make through without a way back into love
Oh

[Haley Bennett]
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

[Hugh Grant]
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction and I'm open to your suggestions

[Haley Bennett & Hugh Grant]
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping that you'll be there for me in the end

[Haley Bennett]
Oh
Oh
Oh

[Hugh Grant]
Oh
Oh

[Haley Bennett]
Oh
Oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration not just another negotiation

[Haley Bennett & Hugh Grant]
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you'll help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

watched music and lyrics with baby ytd. its pretty nice. i loved the song. i didnt know its the theme song ofr that movie. i always hear it on the fm. but i didnt know the title of the song. thanks baby for not watching the show first and watch it with me. muacks. thats very sweet of you!!.then i shared my kose black mask with baby. did some interesting art work on his face..

 as always after that we meet the ganag to play dota. they play dota. i play audition. didnt play audition of quite long. then my fingers are quite retarded. arghhh. but nvm. i enjoyed the game last night. haha. after i went home, ai lun called me. we spoke on the phone untill 5 plus in the morning? i didnt know we talked for so long. shared many things too. should be meeting her and asther. its not decided yet. i dont now if she woke up alr anot. haha. we both are pigs!! i really hope i'll pass thru the interview on monday..i need office job. i love the working hours. i hate retail hours. so damn long!! stand untill my legs are so sore. another issue baby is unhappy about is my school. i haven been going to sch because i was working. jseph called me just now to check if i have recieved my schedule. bt i didnt. in the end he told me. his colleague pushed me to the june intake -.- . so in all i just missed the orientation only.. thanks baby for worrying.

love loves you..

took me quite long to finish this and give it to baby.. but i know its worth it. went to watch the gys play ball. but luckily huifen and ai lun were there too. as usual. we kept on talking. continously non-stop. we rock man! i wanna go bangkok with them ahhhhhh...!!!

here's my master piece..

 yes. and its to my darling.. muacks

Ooh, ooh  Ooh, ooh 

From the minute that you got my attention  

I was taken and I have to mention  

I was trying to not let it show  

But I knew I wasn't gonna let you go  

From the way that you came right to me  

Looking all hot with the style that threw me  

No one would've ever known it  

You would be the one who take this heart and hold it  

You got that extraordinary way  

Got to be next to ya every single day  

You do something that I just can't explain  

Wanna take the chance and tell you 

you're the one for me 

Boy, I love you so  

Just look in my eyes, 

they'll tell you where this could go  

Yeah  Do you know it  

Boy, I love you so  Look in these eyes, 

they'll tell you where this could go  

I just want you to know 

You can san say anything you want to  

No stress 'cause I understand you  

We got a vibe you can't define  

Want everyone know that boy is mine  

We won't fight and stop and stare at the way you hold me  

You take me there at times  

I feel I lose control  

Forget everyone but the hand I'm holding   

You got that extraordinary way  

Got to be next to ya every single day  

You do something that I just can't explain  

Wanna take the chance and tell you 

you're the one for me   

Boy, I love you so  

Just look in my eyes, 

they'll tell you where this could go  

Yeah  

Can you feel it  

Boy, I love you so  

Look in these eyes, 

they'll tell you where this could go  

I just want you to know   

Please know this  

I'll always be right here  

And you don't have to look  

Nowhere else babe  

Don't think for a minute  

This love will change  

Oh you should know that   

Boy, I love you so  

Just look in my eyes, 

they'll tell you where this could go  

Yeah  

Can you feel it  

Boy, I love you so  

Look in these eyes, 

they'll tell you where this could go  

I just want you to know   

Boy, I love you so  

Just look in my eyes, 

they'll tell you where this could go  

Yeah  

Can you feel it  

Boy, I love you so  

Look in these eyes, 

they'll tell you where this could go  

I just want you to know 

title: Love you so

by: Natalie

finally met up with baby yesterday. altough its only been two days

but it seems forever!  yes and i love my baby deep deep. (haha)

we had a very exciting game! hmm i guess i meant violent.

but it was fun and thrilling. hees. crazy us!. 

and.. OH! never laugh at others.. i learnt my lesson. i laugh at 

baby for being bitten by mosquitos. and the next minute.,

i stepped on a cat's poo.!! unlucky right? maybe i should vuy 4D . 

might have a chance to win.! these few days i've been busy working 

but when i'm taking my break, i'll be talking to ai lun

actually i realised the few of us always have the common topic! 

probably its because "birds of thefeather flock together"

i'm not saying about us but them. hahahha,

okok got to go eat lunch. man.. i'm famished!

things hasnt been going well these few days..

忽然之间天昏地暗
世界可以忽然什么都没有
我想起了你再想到自己
我为什么总在非常脆弱的时候怀念你
我明白太放不开你的爱太熟悉你的关怀
分不开想你算是安慰还是悲哀
而现在就算时针都停摆就算生命像尘埃
分不开我们也许反而更相信爱
music
如果这天地最终会消失
不想一路走来珍惜的回忆没有你
hmmm.. sorry dear.. i didnt know i was so insensitive. i realy didnt realise it at all.i know its hard for you to forgive me, this will always be a torn in your flesh. i can feel that our distance is getting further and futher.. now i really know whats the meaning of so near yet so far. i thought by going all the way to meet you , you'll feel my sincerity. but it caused a reverse reaction.. i really dont know what i should do...hais. i feel so down. i dont feel like working. but i know by doing that it'll only make things worse.you dont even wanna send me up despite foen saying he dont mind.. i really dont know how to carry on like this.i really envios of huifen and mary. they're really very fortunate..en and hong gave ther gf a trophy for being the best gf. you may find it stupid but i think its very sweet. yes, although en's gonna buy huifen a coach bag just because he thinks that he hasnt bought her anything for quite long le you shouldnt say he's spoilling the market. seriously i think we have communication problem.. argh.. i dont know what to say anymore,,

yes i love you. i hope we're meant to be. hais

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLINGS

to my bro feng and jassie..

from the 3rd to 6th.. i was in bangkok.. crazily shopping.. i love that place. love the price too. everything's like so cheap.. but i never stop walking.. that caused cramps on my upper thighs. but i went for the traditional thai massage. it was fantastic!! i fell alseep and i.. (drool) hahas. al thanks to tis trip, i guess i wont be shopping during the grea singapore sales.. yes.. and i need to farm. super broke now!!

after i came back. i joined mr nabeh for his class chalet.. it was really fun.. we played stupid games. time was really enjoyable there because of daphne , reina , huiyi and others.. hees. and all thanks to von.. i tried my first cup of ice cream with baileys mint. sounds cool right? it taste even better!!

as for school... i looked at the notes for my first lesson.. i was strucked dumb.. i'm lost!! need to be serious and start studying.. =(

hugo is so damn naughty. he ran outta the house when i didnt keep an eye on him. horrible. pee everywhere. argh. angry. .(just when i was typing, he shit) why why why. why hugo can peee and poooo so many times.!!! irritating.  but i admit. he brought joy to my life (now he sneaks outta the room)  -.-. ok enough of hugo.

had a long boring day at home. all thanks my darling bro. treat me to mac again. cause i was too lazy to go buy my own food.hahas. hopeless for a girl. >.<. finished watching all the disc. nothing to watch. too much time. but how to waste? haha. nevermind.. i continue watching naruto then. hees.\

flying off to look for naruto..weeee

haven blog for so super long. in summary. its not that bad. but stil the same usual thing. ever dragging pay. argh. HATE IT TO THE CORE. and and and. hugo has a new found friend. KIRA. but i pity kira. cause my hugo is one big time BULLY. seeing is believing. hahas. i took some videos of them "interacting." but my doubt is... is my hugo over-friendly or agressive. does he like kira? or he simply hate him too. hahahs. confusing.

BANGKOK trip is drawing near. i'm so excited!! so i must save myself from temptations. gotta farm for my shopping at bangkok.hee hee hee. wicked eh.  fun time with ze wei and gang. do stupid things and spend funny times. hahas. had a great time with huifen and xinyi too. kept talking untill my throat was super sore. hahaha. looking forward for my photoshoot. i hope everything goes on smoothly...

there's still alot of movies i haven catch. and and and. Mr MR nabeh. all the best for your exams. i know you can do it. cause you've got a bigger brain which means... you have a larger capacity. hees. muacks everyone.

hais. its been a tiring day. regretted working. i feel that its slavery.!! so embarassing to parade around orchard with signboards and drummers behind. the board was of good use. *can be used to cover my face. anyway was working with cherie baby. haven seen her ever since the last it show (sitex) our grapevines date hasnt been arranged yet. i miss the sambal squid. hees. this time we invite jessica along. yeah. i'll be so looking forward to next sunday!! grapevines grapevines. wait for me. wahahhas. the whole long day we were cracking our brains , trying to slack. hahahas. and B is always the talkative one. with her around , time will pass faster. just when we were talking about the INFAMOUS steven lim , about his stupid and disgusting videos. we saw him around luckyplaza approaching the crowd claiming that he's looking for models. stoppig people trying to harrass them.personally i feel that he's one extreme extreme extreme attention seeker. he wants the attention so much that he did it the wrong way.

steven lim - with shanghai girl

steven lim - anti aids commercial